Saturday, November 25, 2006
I've been a bad, bad girl
Ever get that feeling where you know you've played way too much Mortal Kombat: Armaggedon and there's an assload of homework waiting to all be done in just one day?Yeah. Now there's my Bloody Fatality.
Monday, November 20, 2006
What I could have done but didn't, what I shouldn't have done but did, and what I'm glad I did (all in one day)
Friday was..uh...revealing? I don't know what to call it, but I liked it. You know those one-on-one conversations where you talk about whatever comes to mind? I had a lot of those today. Bonding moments :) I never get enough of those!I found out that Jarelle is now going through the same phase that I was a week ago. Like, you can't really react to anything. You wonder if you're depressed but you know you're not, but still, you have the feeling that something's...missing. And you're not quite sure what that something is.
We wondered if it was PMS, but we were both not the kind of girls who experience PMS. (My brother has PMS more than I do.) The mystery remains unsolved, so we spent the rest of the time in front of the STR unit (Ellie, traumaaaa!!!) talking about our respective lives. Would it be wrong to say that I'm moderately jealous of you? Haha. And DIBA HOT SI ANO? Oh yesss =)
Something happened, which I'm really too embarrassed to talk about, but it gave me a very, very strong sense of "Oh shit, I shouldn't have done that." Dear God, I wish I hadn't. I never will again! I feel so guilty. Sorry, sorry, sorry!
Of course, I just couldn't help myself. Me to people: "Waiting makes you crazy!"
Ma'am Paccarangan is liking me less and less. I feel bad about that too. And jeez Ellie, thank you very much for instilling in me a fear of the "monster!" I didn't think much about it until CS when I was crimping the cable and I felt someone's chin touch my shoulder.
NGYAAAAH!!!
I have a song for you, Ellie and people who fear the moon/"buwan" (the dark moon):
"When the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie, that's amore..."
Although a more appropriate lyric dor people like us would be:
"When the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie, that's AAAAAAAAAHHH!!!"
Paskorus practice helped me recover just a little bit. And when I say "recover," I mean from the traumatic event that happened at the STR unit that I still feel so guilty about. (Though I wish you'd understand that I didn't enjoy spending my ENTIRE lunch period in line, thankyouverymuch. Still, I'm sorry!) Rhey didn't help though. Darn bully. Regarding the monster -- Paskorus practice just made things worse.
[Paskorus is an annual tradition in Pisay where each section competes against the others in a choir competition. This year, we all had to sing "What Child is This?"]
Potassium originally did not plan to join since we had some issues and whatnot, but at the very last minute, Sir Alfer pressured Ada and company to join and they dragged all the rest of us down with them. (Magnesium: "Na-uto niya rin kayo?") We had one day (ONE DAY!) to practice, and at the most inopportune time for me, too, since my recent bout of colds had ravaged my throat and left my voice sounding "freeeeaky," as Ada would say. I have a soprano voice, but my "freaky colds voice" made me defect to the alto voice range for a while, until I realized that there were few sopranos singing, so I went back. Throughout our whole "major general practice" I was coughing like crazy, and gradually getting paos.
"What child is this -- cough, cough -- who laid to rest on Mary's lap -- cough cough -- is sleeping..."
Natawa rin ako dahil sa boses ni ano. He's a walking sablay. While singing I was making "See what I mean?" faces at our conductor, Angel. And she made "Heh-heh yeah I know" faces back. Bwahaha. Then I made "RARR MONSTER" faces at Ellie.
While taking a break we took shots at wrecking Crystle's happy childhood. >:D She had this book, "King Midas" or something, and the characters were drawn as "bears" (or so she said). Deo said they look like rats.
"But why don't they have any ears? Bears have ears!" I said. "Oh I know! It's a seal!"
I got a collective "ngeeeeh" mixed with laughter in response. Yah whatever dudes, Ada thought it was a duck. =P I'm sure it's a badger, but never mind.
That day, I realized that most of the things I talk to my friends about are variations on "Tell me about the people in your life." I hardly ever talk to people about music since my taste in music is simultaneously eclectic and unrelatable. Unless you read my Friendster profile from top to bottom, or unless you mentioned liking one of these artists and I said "Me too!", I'm sure very few know that I like Nirvana, Stone Temple Pilots, Billy Joel, The White Stripes or Prince. I'm also sure that few know I like every genre of music except for reggae and new wave. (Ugh.) So I decided to try out this novel topic.
I started with JK. "Mahilig ka ba sa music?" Hehehe. Hey, I didn't even know whether he liked music or not. As it turns out, he's into emo bands (HAHAHA) like Fall Out Boy and Taking Back Sunday.
It's so amusing to tease people about being emo, because everyone I've told that to vehemently denies it. Telling people that they're emo is like telling them they have herpes. =))
Reactions I've gotten:
Jimpo: Yuck noooo!
JK: Hindi ah!
Deo: No way!
[censored]: Shhh don't tell anyone!
(Anyway, JK pahiram ng Fall Out Boy ha =D)
Then I talked to Angel about music. Haha, ABBA =P And Yellowcard! I didn't have the heart to pull the emo card on her, so I was like "Ah okay!" then I finally revealed that I don't really like High School Musical. It was cute, but it's no Wicked or Rent...not even Hairspray! A few days before we were reminiscing about cheesy late '90s bands too, like Aqua, Vengaboys and the Spice Girls. Man, those were the days! I'm only 16 but I'm getting nostalgic.
Paskorus itself was okay. We weren't spectacular, pero wala naming sablay (except for...you know). Paul told us all to smile, so I was smiling while we sang -- actually, it was more like half-laughing because of the voice of you-know-who. He was screaming the lyrics eh! But when I looked left and right I was like, "Why am I the only one who's smiling?" Haha. Awkward moment. =P
My day ended with a kwentuhan with Gippo, who is the best guy for kwentuhan sessions since andami niyang alam na chika! We didn't exchange tsismis today though. Instead, he told me about his situation. Sheesh, I feel like my timing sucks in everything. x___x I should have gotten sick and gone studious next week! (I spent my free time at the library making up for missed assignments.) Maybe I'm that kind of person, but I couldn't help but think, "What if I was there? Could I have done something?"
And I don't really know. I feel like I could have. Or useless as it might have been, I at least would have stood up for them, that much is certain.
What I wouldn't give to turn back time. Though if I did, I'd do Friday exactly the same. (Except for "the thing that happened," because I feel so bad about that. I'm SO sorry!)
Friday, November 17, 2006
You think I ENJOY this?
Okay, ^^^ was not really an instigated comment, but it begs to be asked.As some of you may know, I was absent Monday and Tuesday this week. As a significantly larger number of you may know, I am starting to gain a reputation as a frequent absentee. Some may have even gotten...suspicious. Does it bother me? To some extent, yes. Because for all the rumors and whatnot, trust me, I'd quite rather be at school. It's not fun staying in bed worrying about what you're missing. I've asked my parents time and again to buy me multivitamins so that I wouldn't be so sickly. As Clusivol ads would say, "Bawal magkasakit!"
Still, I often wake up feeling physically bad. Most of the time I try to ignore it and still go to school in order to lower my number of absences. As a result of this, my condition usually worsens over the day, prompting either a clinic visit or, at one time, spending most of the Math period with my head against the table as my body temperature continued to rise. (Yeeesh, that was painful!)
When I was younger, I was healthy as a horse. The worst illness I'd contracted then was colds and the occasional fever. Since transferring to Pisay, however, I've developed the tendency to catch a really bad medical condition at least once a year.
First year: High fever and bronchitis
Second year: Positional vertigo, fever, and influenza
This year: Hepatitis, fever, migraines
In addition to what's listed above, the illnesses I got this week are: fever, colds, and a mild case of food poisoning. (We think it might be something I ate at the Hyatt over the weekend.) I wanted desperately to brave through it so I could go to school, but I nearly fainted at the breakfast table and decided to go back to bed.
Let me repeat: THIS WASN'T FUN. Okay, surfing for YouTube clips of my beloved Daniel Vosovic is kinda fun, but staying glued to the bed with my laptop and not being able to do much else isn't fun at all.
So, could the illnesses have been caused by stress? I suppose my 4-hours-of-sleep-a-night habit contributed to my weakened immune system, although I don't understand how stress could cause an inflamed liver.
Frankly, people, I don't have the heart to play hooky. Sometimes I think it would be easier, but really, it's not worth it.
Until then, I'm hoping my little bottle of Clusivol will help me through this.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
The one-liner and the YM snippet.
I have a one-liner that summarizes my general mood for the past months, and it goes like this:If there was a gimik and party equivalent for the mood "sexually frustrated," that's EXACTLY how I feel.
I'm itching to get out. And I know I've scratched now and again with a few movies and coffee trips, but I want a big BIG gimik. People, I'm dying over heeeere!
Meh. Next: my heartfelt apologies go out to Sowf, who was the unfortunate wrong-place-wrong-time person to witness my explosion of the affection I feel for a certain beloved gayboy. We were talking about a possible gimik when suddenly...
J.C.: hey Daniel Vosovic is just so cute isn't he? haha singit :P
Sophie: yeah he's my favorite =))
J.C.: grabe when i saw him i was like "SHIT ANG CUTE!" =))
J.C.: hehe Jai Rodriguez has a crush on him, just like me ;))
Sophie: omg cute couple =)
J.C.: haha sayang Daniel has a boyfriend na eh i'm crazy jealooooous
Sophie: ganon?! sayang
J.C.: yeah ohwell at least he's happy. and so freaking cute AAAAGH 8-}
My bad =P But HE'S SOOOO CUTE NOH?
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Say Bye-bye, Kids: The Death of Halloween
"Halloween is dead," Kat/Keena said over dinner with me and Micmac at the ATC Foodcourt on the night of Halloween.Even for kids enjoying their sembreaks right now (we students of Pisay are unfortunately not among them), Halloween is indeed dead, and with it went the simple joys of childhood.
We live in an age where kids have XBoxes instead of jumpropes, Gameboys instead of board games. No kid 5 years or older really bothers to play with the neighbors' kids on the street anymore. I hate to sound like an old fart, but it's a sad realization, since my own simple childhood was quite a happy one, even without all the gadgets and gizmos available today. I enjoyed having little tea parties with the neighbors and playing patintero. Okay, yeah, we sometimes went to Kuya Bobby's house to play Mortal Kombat, but those visits were few and far between.
I hadn't learned of bad words until I was in the fourth grade, and in those days people would gasp if you ever said any of those. These days, I hear of Junior Prep students in my old school flipping people the bird and screaming obscenities. It almost broke my heart to hear that my 7-year-old cousin screams words like "Bitch!" and "Asshole!" in school.
Halloween, of all the holidays and events, was the lynchpin, the very essence of childhood. As a kid, I always looked forward to dressing up as a sorceress or an angel and going house to house in Ayala Alabang Village with friends to get candy. Every house seemed to have people outside with giant vats of candy to give away; the really rich ones gave away KitKat or Barbie Dolls. No kidding!
Eventually, and I never even thought that this would happen, the Halloween spirit started to fade away. While trick-or-treating with friends in the sixth grade, we noticed that only about two houses per block were giving away candy, as opposed to previous years where every house had candy to give away. I remember thinking at the time, "Does this mean Halloween is dying out?"
This year, the President announced that October 31 is not a holiday. Sign of the times, I thought. Nobody cares about Halloween anymore. It served as the final nail in the coffin of the blissful childhood we once experienced yesteryear.
Sure, children in costumes still go around for candy. While flipping through a back issue of Pulp magazine and having lunch at Hot Shots, I saw little ghouls and fairies trotting around Glorietta's stores for free candy. This still doesn't disprove my point. Kids today are just doing it for the free candy, before they go back home and devote their time to the latest video game. Years ago, we children enjoyed so much more than that.
It saddens me to think that the children of this generation will never get to experience the simple joys of a childhood unfettered with profanities, violence, internet, and frivolous things. Don't get me wrong, technology is great. However, it has robbed today's young ones of their innocence, and no number of iPods, XBoxes, PlayStations, or GameBoys will ever bring that back.
